The 4th week of September :(

The week turned out to be a total disaster for me. Yes!! total disaster what I mean. Firstly, when you aren't prepared at all, a tough day at desk doesn't bother you much because you know that that's what you deserved,for depending entirely on cheating.It may or may not go fair. But when you are fully prepared, and still the test goes wrong, it really hurts. Awful thoughts comes into mind. A sense grows inside that the time wasted for that subject could have been utilized in a much more efficient way.That's what happened with me, I entered the class with sufficient preparation, with all the formulae and concepts in my mind backing me.But suddenly I explored that the teacher was ready to screw us, and set a paper, which could only be solved if the time allotted was at least 2 hrs.But unfortunately the time limit was only 50 mins or so, and the teacher collected the paper even before the completion of the allotted time. Things could never have been worse,as I sat at the edge of the desk, and so had very little opportunity to cheat. I came out trying 5 among 6, but only 3 among them seemed to be correct. So the hope of getting an S in maths almost dies here.

Nipu Modak was very much irritated with us as Sagar shewed his butt to him. The poor fellow argued that we would rather have informed him that we are not going to attend the class. And as a revenge he arranged a "surprise test". To add to the injury I forgot to bring the copy containing those formulae of "belt-pulley" and immediately got marked by an enraged Nipu [he wants to date girls although he is married, seems he is not as "innocent" as he appears]
after the submission of the paper, we came to know that depending on what we have written in the paper, we are going to get evaluated. I scored D+. viz. the lowest possible grade. Thanks to my "formidable" memory.

I got caught red handed by GS while smoking in the class. The arrogant fellow was not supposed to be there at the recess, but again thanks to my "good" luck. He threatened me to inform the head. But I reckon he still have not done anything.

There are more things to go. My "bold" classmates forgot to inform Shibaji sir about the class test.And I am sure that another "chat" is waiting for us from Shibaji sir.

Meanwhile the only positive side has been the test of MR. It seems that it has gone fair.At least I think so.

Lyk I bleed but wait...lyk nothins wrong

Sometimes people accuses me to be indifferent to consequences. Like, some friends of mine tells me some of his/her findings,which he/she thinks to be important n i simply don react to them. One think i've understood in this span of 19 yrs [20 to be soon] that ur own emotion simply doesn hav any importance to most of the people with whom u interact, includin ur "best frnds" or sumtimes even ur "caring parents"... i've experienced so much numbness 4m the ppl arnd me that i myself have become numb... so called gr8 events or things deserving interest don affect or interest me ne more... i've finally learnt to live on my own... but sumtimes even my threshold breaks, the eyes want to burst into tears, but dey can't... curse of bein a man... i want to cry but mah eyes betray... a warm cloud of vapor surrounds my head...sumtimes i just want to breathe, but i can't... i don care 4 w8ever happens in the world surrounding me, i simply don care for!!!... previously i loved the words "you" & "we" but now i'm changed...all that think is abt "i", jus lyk u guys suurounding me, the thousands of clowns dat roam the streets daily. Not talkin abt ne1 in particular. but its u, u guys who hav made me lyk this...

P.S.:- My dear frnds [either 4m college or from school], don bother to think urself so important to me dat i'll waste mah tym n write a blog entry 4 u guys. Puttin straight forward, its not abt u .

Why Arsenal???

For such a long time, I have been repetitively asked by my companions that why the heck I love Arsenal, for those who don't know what Arsenal is, its a club in the EPL [English Premier League]. Most of my now and ex-classmates and also the other boys of the same age support Manchester United wholeheartedly, and so many times they have insisted me to switch over from Arsenal to Manchester United, and I denied the offer, off course it doesn't matter for either Manchester United or Arsenal, gaining or loosing support of a single supporter may not seem interesting for the clubs, but still, the single reason that makes me not to support Manchester United is their arrogance, they boast off much more than they actually are, I mean their play style sucks [at least to me], I cant remember of a single player that Manchester United has discovered, the so much discussed Wayne Rooney was clinched from a not so well known EPL club, Everton, just because Manchester United has lots of money, for years they have stole [or in other words, imported] discoveries of other clubs. This is a field where Arsenal simply zooms past Manchester United, the famous English defender Sol Campbell came to Arsenal without having the club to pay any transfer fees. The second reason that makes me hate Man U is the presence of Sir Alex Ferguson, although he is a nice coach but then everything regarding this gentleman is full of arrogance,from his appearance to his words, on the other hand Arsen Wenger talks little, doesn't have a tendency to get into disputes, Alex regards the players of Man U to be his sole property, The third and most profound reason is that I simply can't watch the gamestyle of the Reds, the same play acting by Christiano Ronaldo earns them a penalty, they score from it, and the opponent gets dishearted feeling that they are playing against 12 opponents, while Rio Ferdinand is a good player in my opinion, the same sort of charge by Wes Brown often results in a yellow card to the opponent, Evra is a good player, but another overrated player is Neville, very few times, I have seen him playing to his reputation. The aggressive, physical gamestyle, and galore play acting and some other privileges from the officials enables them to win a match and even the championship, but they can never play like Arsenal, although I like Arsenal playing at Highbury much, the new Emirates Stadium is gorgeous too, when the team attacks, it resembles tides crushing on the shore, Cesc Fabregas is the player I like most, he has plenty of talent [not comparable to Ronaldo though, but he doesn't require play acting to win], it has been a tradition for them. One's eye really remains glued while they are playing, they are so composed you know.But then, they are not half as rich as Man U, so they fail to develop a lineup that is comparable to some other rich clubs of the EPL.Which depraves them of the trophy. But I am sure, as they have shown in the past, this club will earn plenty of bucks, and then Man U!!! you are over.

Man U sucks!!! GAME OVER

Canteen vs Classroom

When I was a newcomer in my college, I used to attend a lot of classes, not that I liked them so much, but in order to avoid ragging, and I thought that performing some act commonly known as " bunking" is not suitable for newcomers either. "Classes are boring", there's this universal rule , classes can never be entertaining. No matter how amusing the lecture be, still it cant surpass some tt rounds. As I grew older, I gained enough courage to start bunking classes. Some appropriate companion also helped it occur. And I found that the outside of the class is much more interesting than the inside. I started spending lots of time outside the class, regardless of how important the class was, I bunked it. and I found that they don't take a toll on my results either. Teachers being completely unfamiliar with my face, failed to develop even a bad impression on me. Time passed on smoothly until one day I found that the outside of the class is not a very entertaining or amusing place either, indeed its fine for short periods, but performing the same activities over and over again, waiting for the tt bat and my turn to come, sitting aimlessly in the union room or canteen with all my friends in class, smoking cigarettes only to find people demanding first,second,.... counters, destroying money over filthy foods from canteen, and watching the same old faces again and again and listening to their usual words. I realized that if I have to hear lectures then why not from professors, they get paid for the job, and their performance is much better. Then all on a sudden, one day I decided to attend a class. I found it rather interesting, I realized that even classes be much more amusing than recess. Moreover I can save lots of money by attending them, because unless I would have to collect the notes. And I left the class with a proper understanding of whatever the teacher had told, the very next class was extremely boring, I could not even hear half the words uttered by the teacher, I learned that like many other things classes can be both boring and interesting, it is not that all classes are boring, people would say that it depends on the teacher but according to me, it depends majorly upon the students. Because if one has grown the mentality that all classes are boring, then nobody can persuade him from feeling bored inside the class, CLASSES ARE INTERESTING, TRY TO ATTEND THEM, AND DON'T BEAR A PREASSIGNED MENTALITY THAT YOU ARE GOING TO GET BORED. Moreover one has to think about the 70% attendance rule until the movement create some effect [:D]

Losers

Good and evil is so relative!! Isn't it? Sometimes I wake up in the morning and discover a few blisters in my body. Who the hell have created them?? I reckon me. I dare to make that public as some people may call me psycho [or whatever, I cant remember the exact word], you may think me to be a crooked minded human being, a psycho. Hell yeah!! there I am, I like to torture. when there's none available or when the law binds me, why not it be me , myself. Alcohol is a great way to loose yourself. Like it splits you in two, well!! we all have at least two persons living in the same body, at least I do have. My instinct enforces me to torture one of them and make him recessive. and alcohol helps me to do so, in normal state the two faces gets tangled with each other, and torturing one of them, implies infliction of the same on the other. But I don't want that, one at a time,its my principle. Now that's the reason behind me, drinking cohol. The reason behind me, not drinking cohol is that it enables the people around you to joke on you. I just hate people joking on others, because the one who jokes usually remains unaware of the fact that he is full of flaws. I hate people who think they are special, because in most of cases they consider being a bit different from others is uniqueness. It may not be so, may it be that all the people around you are special and you are the only one who is not. Very much possible !! seems confusing??? let me cite a lame example, when I was in class 7 or so, a question regarding the characteristic of some plant was given in the paper, we all answered briefly but one among us wrote the characteristic of all the plants he knew. On being asked, the reply was, lets try something different. Now according to me that was complete idiocy. So many times, I have found people battling over "their specialty" that I am glad to state that I am not special. Teetaw Teetaw [:D] you got it there, I AM SPECIAL BECAUSE I DON'T THINK MYSELF TO BE A SPECIAL PERSON REGARDLESS OF WHATEVER SPECIALTY I HAVE [:D]THAT INDEED MAKES ME SPECIAL IN THIS SPECIAL WORLD FULL OF SO MUCH SPECIALS.WAIT!! THERE'S A CIGARETTE BRAND OF THE SAME NAME AS WELL. Now that I finally started discussing of cigarettes let me explain why I smoke! not for a hallucination or the weird feeling some people use to cite [symptoms resembling vertigo and epilepsy, my pituitary is not that week], OTHERWISE I COULD HAVE WAITED FOR 3 DAYS AND SMOKE ONLY ONE CIGARETTE,cigarettes for me is like a dose to my other face. while one gets involved in some work, the other cherishes the break. Why should it??? let it get engaged in some destructive activities, like I need some guns to blow off hypocrites and some MPs to take over the throne, too difficult, man. lets smoke a cigarette, blowing off hypocrites isn't a bad idea either, but the sad news is that they think others to be idiots, so sad, but too bad for them people even after realizing their mentality commits the same mistake over and over again.Also cigarette has been like my girlfriend, accompanied me in my blues, in those nights before exams, in shadows of my life, then why should I leave them now, " SMOKING IS INJURIOUS FOR HEALTH BLAH BLAH BLAH...GO TO HELL. LIVE TEN MORE YEARS THAN ME IN THIS SO SPECIAL WORLD, I DONT CARE. I AM HAPPY WITH THEM. NOW A DAYS, I HAVE STOPPED CONSUMING HARD LIQUORS.But cant leave cigarettes, nor is planning to. AMEN!!

FUCK OFF